So, as I’ve just said in another discussion HERE, and alluded to some time ago…
I was recently diagnosed by a psychiatrist as having (primarily inattentive) ADD.
I realise that this is a big thing to say in a group of skeptics. As I seem to have gotten a SHITLOAD of skepticism about this from all corners. Most of the variety:
Well THAT is obvious bullshit, these days every second kid supposedly has ADD when they're actually just smart/different/active/normal/irritates the teacher/individualistic/....
Here’s the thing. And here I’m being 100% honest with you guys, I walked into that office knowing that most of my life I’ve been a massive under-achiever. I am smart, yes, I have a good job, yes, I graduated varsity, yes. But I can tell you now, almost half ashamed, almost guilty of having it too easy in life, that I could only do anything I’ve ever done because I was inherently smart. I never deserved any of it if due to “effort”. I could not, never, ever, sit down and WORK something until it was complete. Impossible. Cannot be done. And then…
... and then they give people ritalin and make them blunt/stupider/sedate/a better slave/without joy/without feeling......
Well, now, with my experiences the last few months, I disagree, whereas before I may have agreed. See, these opinions, they delayed me seeking treatment. They delayed me admitting that this could be my problem. They made me think that admitting I had a problem would be admitting that I simply was being a bad person, and ADD was a cop-out, etc…
So I went on a slowly-ramping-up schedule of (what is essentially a differently named) ritalin. I was plently skeptical, and read a lot about it before even making my first visit, I didn’t say a peep to most anyone, not even this forum, where I’m somewhat anonymous anyway…
Initially, on the lower dose, I found no effects. I had side effects, but no real progress was being made on the concentration front. I returned to my doc quite despondent, he explained that we hadn’t yet hit the correct dose. We tried again at a higher dose. Initially, not much change. But then I started having “revelatory” days… I can suddenly work ALL DAY.
That sentence seems trivial and stupid, maybe, to you. But to me, that is a life changer. I feel alive, I feel energetic, I feel optimistic about work, and life. And that is a game changer for me. I do NOT feel sedate, boring, slavish, without joy, bereft of my “being”, now a different person. In fact I feel the exact person as before. But more “in focus”, more aware of what is going on, what my goals are, and how I’m reaching them. I feel, totally, new, yet the same.
So there’s my anecdote. I struggled for a long time to focus on work, and it held me back. Ritalin (in the form I’m taking it), cured me. When I forget to take it, I slide down straight into the abyss again. When I’m on it, I’m happier because I finally feel like a productive part of the human race.
This doesn’t mean I think children the world over are not getting too much ritalin to settle them down. In fact, one of the reasons I’m comfortable with this is because problems with ritalin are mainly found in children, not adults. The developed world probably needs to re-considder the criteria for ADHD. I don’t know. But I’m making this topic so that you, my fellow skeptics, can say your say on the matter. I will be going for my first repeat of the “effective dose” in a couple of days, and I welcome your input. (Yes if you read the above it is clear I’m VERY favourable towards the medication right now)